Just wanted to say hi, since I'm new around here.
I was raised Roman Catholic, left as a teen to get involved in drugs and Wicca. When I got clean, I left Wicca, but tried everything else, Hare Krishna, Buddhism, Islam, everything BUT Christianity. Eventually I settled into agnosticism, then atheism. One Sunday, I woke up with an urge to go to church, found myself in a church of Christ, got saved and "rebaptized". After a year, I begn having questions that the preacher couldn't answer and found myself back in the RCC. It never really touched my soul and I was never happy. The priest set up road blocks to having my children baptized and my marriage convalidated. I was having issues with many teachings. I knew in my heart that I didn't want my children raised Catholic, but didn't know where to turn. I tried a Divine Liturgy, but was then afraid to leave Catholicism. I began reading and wound up confused about the schism, since the Orthodox hiistorian portrayed it differently than what I had learned in Catholic school. I became depressed and questioned my faith. I met with a priest from each church and was even more confused and stopped going to church. Then, a close aunt, who was an atheist, died. Her funeral was an eye opener. All her friends were trying to be hopeful and about her afterlife without discussing God. I knew that i needed to made a decision. I tried an Anglican church, but knew right away, it was not the answer. After a couple more masses, I tried a Divine Liturgy at another church, and it was RIGHT. I met with the priest and we discussed many difficult issues. A month or so later, Great Lent started. On Clean Monday. I attended Great Compline and I spent the night in tears and on my knees. I knew then that that was where I was supposed to be. I became a catechumen that Friday. It's been a hard road, but I now think I'm ready to be chrismated. Father says that once I have a sponsor, we can set a date.