Is it normal for a catechumen to miss their old church in the middle of their catechumenate?? It's not that I want to go back to being Episcopal or Catholic, but for the past two weeks or so I have really really missed my old Episcopal and Catholic churches. I miss the hymns(even the ones I used to hate, lol), being an acolyte, the taste of communion wine and wafers, kneeling, teaching Sunday School, youth group, and stuff like that. I also miss going to a "normal sized" church(the Orthodox church I go to, though I love it, it has only about 40-50 people at Divine Liturgy on Sunday). I mean, at the Catholic Church I used to go to, the youth group was bigger than the entire congregation at my Orthodx Church. The odd thing is I am missing things that I hated or didn't really care that much for when I was actually Episcopalian. Like I really miss youth group now, even though in the Episcopal Church I thought it was kind of stupid most of the time...Has anyone else had feelings like these? What did you do to overcome them?
I do know what you are going through. I've been there before, and actually I'm there again now. Back when I was near your age, I converted from one church to another. It was a big conversion, since the churches were nothing alike in either practice or doctrine. I missed my old church so much. It was so familiar, with so many good memories of people and songs and, well, just everything. Plus I felt like I really belonged at the old church. At the new one, I was so unsure of myself, not feeling like I knew enough to voice my opinion when discussing theology. I just didn't feel authentic, like it was really part of me and I was at my spiritual home. It took me a few years before that passed entirely. That may not be the answer you wanted to hear, but it was my experience. How to overcome those feelings? Well, what I did was pretty much throw myself into as much activity as possible at the new church. I made it my home and my life. After a little while, I stopped thinkiing about my old church so much, but one day, after a few years, I thought about it and realized I had no feelings anymore for that past. I was content where I was currently, and I had reached a point where I couldn't imagine myself at any other church or practicing religion in any other way.
Now, well, I'm back where you are again. I've found my way to the Orthodox Church, and feel drawn to join myself with it. I expect to feel the same way to the church I'm coming from again for the next few years, but I'm looking forward to after that. I'm looking forward to reaching a similar point in my life, where I can't imagine myself anywhere else other than the Orthodox Church. I'm looking forward to feeling authentic again. I know you are truly part of the church once you join, but it takes a while to feel that way emotionally, instead of just knowing it intellectually.
I've rambled long enough. It is natural to feel what you are feeling. You have found a church of great truth and beauty. In time, as you continue to live and practice your new faith, those old feelings will fade away. Don't push yourself and rush things.