lol! Don't worry sister, I have commited my fair share of orthodox 'faux pas' myself, and then some. Would you like to divulge, perhaps, so the rest of us learners don't make the same mistake? If not, that's ok too
No problem! (Maybe this will get me over the hurdle of having to talk to the priest about it when I next see him!
They had the procession, which...I've been a Catholic, so crossing myself while the cross and incense is coming by was pretty easy peasy.
I don't know how it differs with the churches...but at the one I attend, they distribute the antidoron at the very end of services. I read in some places that members will give you the bread, but I go up to receive. It's never been an issue. From where I was standing, I saw the priest distributing flowers that were at the foot of the cross, and I thought, "Okay, so I'll just pick up a flower and get the bread."
5 people were in front of me, and I realized that he was saying something to them, holding up the cross, and they were kissing it. I froze and I immediately got the deer in headlights look. I had a series of very inappropriate thoughts going on in my mind, and I swear that one of the voices was yelling "RUN!!!!"
I don't have an issue with venerating the cross or even kissing it (and I can only bring myself to kiss the icons in my home at this point) so I wasn't concerned about that. However, much like my nightmares of accidentally going up to communion, I didn't want to venerate the cross if it wasn't appropriate for me to do so as a non-Orthodox.
The moment went by really fast, but I swear he saw the panicked look in my eyes. I think he just told me the standard antidoron blessing and handed me a flower. I just bowed in front of the cross and made the sign of the cross before going to get the bread. I had no idea what to do. I think whoever was holding the cross had kind of pulled it back (I don't even remember who was at this point) so I wasn't about to lean forward and kiss the cross if it looked like they recognized that I didn't know what to do.
I was whining about it on the entire ride home, and my husband said, "Oh, we are going to make many more mistakes, and you know it."