:-( My first Pascha is ruined. My parents will only let me stay for half of it on saturday night. No wonder I haven't been Baptised yet, because my damn parents make my situation so hard.
Sorry to hear that James and further to hear of your frustration in the other thread you started.
You are right. There are no comforting words when life feels like hell. Piety is the death of care.
It sounds like your life is very painful. And adding Orthodoxy to the mix sure ain't going to fix a lot of that, at least not immediately and forever.
The board will be shutting down soon.
Telling someone you will pray for them when their world seems a shambles and God is not there rings incredibly empty in my experience.
But I will pray. Perhaps more importantly for you perhaps, everything you have said sounds exactly right given your circumstances. And I am sorry you have to go through all this.
Hang around till after Pascha and let's see if cutting out some of the hyperdox and getting down to some basics won't help. It always seems to work for me.
Remember, sometimes the only prayer you can pray is to tell God where to go.
Hang in there buddy. Again reading your posts here, you've been on my mind and in my heart more than a few times.
No matter how your Pascha looks, know more than a few will you have in their hearts during theirs. As little comfort as that might be.