The worst thing you can do in your situation is despair and question the providence and authority of your Lord. A lot of people (as I myself have once experienced) misinterpret their periods of trial in a negative light, as if it be a penal response to their own sins, or even just a random chance of misfortune that the Lord simply chooses to ignore. They begin despairing, thinking that the Lord - being the loving and merciful God that He is — will witness this despair and deliver them in His pity towards them. They reason to themselves that the continuance of their condition indicates the lack of a divine response, the lack of the divine’s goodness, or maybe even the lack of the divine’s existence (when in fact it indicates all these things and more). They consequently become even more depressed, and as their faith diminishes, their outlook on themselves and their Lord is tarnished, and satan begins abusing their own emotions against them.
In effect, such a response counters the very purpose of their suffering; hence the Lord allows it to continue. It is like a metalworker attempting to purify a piece of metal; the more impurities therein, the more severe the process. Do not adopt the above impurities of despair, and crypto-disbelief, for you are only inhibiting the process of purification being carried out by means of your suffering, and belittling its meaning and value. According to my own personal experience, as I hope you will experience and learn for yourself, the most effective way for you to get through this period, is to recognise and believe that your suffering has the purpose of ultimately transforming and purifying you — it is for your sake and in your own best interests: "Sorrow is better than laughter, For by a sad countenance, the heart shall be made better"(Ecclesiates 7:3)
Once you have done this, you must reform your attitude and outlook to the situation, nay, your whole person and life, such that your direction is in sync with the will of God, that your sufferings' purpose may be achieved more effectively through perfect synergy — God’s initiation, your obedient response to that, and His assistance. This also means a shift in focus from your sufferings and misfortunes, to your sins, and the sufferings and misfortunes of others.
Finally, please make sure to have regular check-ups with your spiritual physician — your Father of Confession. Allow him to guide you through this trial step by step, and by the Lord’s will, you shall be vindicated to the glory of His Holy Name. Happiness has its due time Photini; however there is no real victory without war; no real glory without sweat, blood, and tears; and no real happiness/blessing without mourning (Matt. 5:4). Mourn Photini, but do not despair.
"For I, the Lord your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, 'Fear not, I will help you.'" (Isaiah 41:13)
May the prayers of the Saints continue to intercede on your behalf; remember me in your prayers also please.
+Irini nem makarismos