This is not about escaping the real world. This has to do with not wasting my life doing a 9 to 5, that doesn't fulfil me. I don't like working because society expects it, or because I want to earn money. I want to be able to share and gain ideas about God and life. And I want to have a career that relates to the most important thing to me. Orthodoxy.
As far as the Priesthood is concerned. I'm not looking at it as a last resort. I at this moment, do not believe I would be ready to take on such a great task.
I actually feel the same way, and I'm glad you posted this thread.
For myself I see the call coming from the desires of my heart. I once was very passionate about one secular field, but things didn't work out for me there. And after that, I sort of was lost. Drifting around at this job and that. Often hating it. Orthodoxy is really the only thing I've been passionate about. And have found a lot of success being a sort of low key unofficial missionary and repesentative of the faith.
So I would say for me this passion is a kind of a sign. Since I know it is unusual compared to so many of my friends, relatives, and acquaitences. Besides enjoying all the music and theology, I find I do take pleasure in the simple and eveyday things of the church. So for example, I took up the job of cleaning the church; because nobody else was doing it. And the church really needed it. And I get a lot of satisfacton doing it. Because I believe like the gospels say, and many monastics practice. That it really is through service. That these things are proven. So I think its important to find joy in all kinds of simple acts of service. Since in many ways this does represent "normal life", in between sunday and all those other church services.
I also see this as a calling I need to develope and plan for. Something I need to study more for. And train more for. And something I need to spend a lot of time talking about with my priest.
I suspect it will probably be many years before I were to become a priest. Like most likely 20. Because of the need to learn and grow in the faith, because I don't think they would be able to have a paying position open for me, because I'm getting closed to being married and I should have my personal matters straightened out first etc.
But I think it is good to pray and think these things out well in advance. Doing so can add direction and discipline to life. Which is what I'm trying to do.