I am currently in a relationship in which many obstacles, both current and potential, threaten its being sealed at the Holy Altar. She is too precious for me to lose, and we have already come a long long way together — emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. Although we seem quite compatible in all the aforementioned fundamental aspects of a relationship, I consistently have this fear (some may call it a paranoia — but I wouldn’t) that I am not good enough for her, that I am too unworthy of her, and that one day it will all coming crashing down on me. I am trying to change a lot of things in my life to “earn her” so to speak, and as such am being motivated and encouraged to become a better person, a better student, a better potential husband, and most important of all, a better Christian.
Please pray for our relationship, that Christ may have mercy upon, and grant His unworthy servant the strongest desire of my heart - my beloved Mary - though according to His will, and not to my own. I know that her entering my life was a miracle, and I truly believe and experience the love of God that I see shines through her. We are approaching the days in which the threatening obstacles need to be dealt with; they are not easy to overcome, and I really need some miracles.