I moved to my new city three weeks ago (on 15 August). Since then, I have attended Divien Liturgy three times at the local Greek Orthodox church. (No, I did not receive Communion -- out of respect for the fact of the schism.)
As much as I planned to leave Orthodoxy aside and to try to be a good Catholic, I cannot.
When I attended Catholic Mass -- especially in the last three weeks-- I felt like I entered the latest denomination of liberal Protesantism. I felt like an alien.
When I attended Divine Liturgy, I felt like I had actually worshipped God. I also felt spiritually at home there.
Catholicism is cataphatic. Orthodoxy is apophatic. And, I have an apophatic disposition to my soul. It feels like Orthodoxy is a Church that is built for people like me. I don't feel like an alien there. I feel normal there.
From what I have read and experienced, I feel strongly drawn to Orthodoxy. I am also beginning to conclude that Ortodoxy has preserved the fullness of the Gospel better than any other Church. Yet, I have my own Church and I feel great loyalty towards it. Please say a prayer for me as I try to sort this all out.
I am also trying to find a good Orthodox monastery in Ohio. I found the website for St. Theodore in Gallion, Ohio. It is a skete of a larger monastery, also in Ohio; and it is of the Greek Orthodox jurisdction. Has anyone heard if it has any reputation -- good or bad? Can anyone recommend a good monastery in Ohio?
I really need to find someone to talk to in person. I may approach the pastor of the local Greek othodox Church, but I would prefer to find a monk: someone who can understand the wrestling in my soul and who can help me.