Amid all of the back and forth that is going on here, put it aside, and do just what you are doing. Go visit a Church (like you already said you are doing this Sunday), and keep praying! May I recommend that you access the website already mentioned http://www.orthodoxinfo.com/
. There on the front page, you can read the about the Saints for that particular day, and also the Scripture readings for the day. You CANNOT go wrong with reading about the Lives of the Saints and Sacred Scripture. I know when I read them, I get spiritually charged up! May I also suggest reading, "God's Revelation to the Human Heart" by Father Seraphim Rose. His writings and his life continue to deeply inspire me. Glory Be to God!
My prayers are with you my friend!
For Some of You Other Folks in this Forum:
I say this with Christian love. WHY do some of you insist on taking "pop-shots" at each other in this forum? IF, you must do this, may I humbly suggest that you do it privately? This kind of dialogue can only serve as a deterent to inquirers. What do you all think? I mean, if I was an inquirer to Orthodoxy, and read some of the replies being offered, I might get turned off. If this is way these forums operate, then I have some reservations. And YES, I do agree, that this should be a website that promotes Holy Orthodoxy.