Trying to get myself in order and remove myself from the world. Selling my computer again, deleting my facebook, putting down all the stuff that keeps me away from God. Please pray that I can finally move forward! I had plans of joining a monastery....some 3 years ago (and had thoughts about it even longer than that) and I've been putting it off and putting it off because I wanted to try to live a life in the world and find a proper girlfriend, but that just isn't the life I am meant to live. God was kind enough recently to give me a kidney stone as a wake up call. As I was screaming in pain and feeling as if I was going to die for 5 days with that kidney stone, I was scared, terrified to die because I knew I was so attached to the world and all the pleasures of the world. I made a promise to God that be it His will I will become a monastic asap, no more putting it off and living for myself.
Please pray that I can quickly pay off this medical bill, save enough to visit the monastery I have in mind and finally live a life of prayer and repentance as a monk. Please pray that I stop wasting my money on stupid worldly junk that is just going to rot in the ground one day and does nothing for my salvation! Pray that I stop fantasying about having a beautiful Orthodox wife because the only woman for me is the Theotokos! Pray that I can die to the world and live a life pleasing to God!
Thank you all for everything, please forgive me if I ever upset any of you and thank you for all that I have learned from you. I'll write down the "OC.net community" in my list of prayers and I'll pray for you all until my repose.
I would post a picture of myself, but it would be better if you took a picture of a donkey, or a pig, or a dog and wrote my name under it.
Love in Christ,