Over the past year I gained a lot and have now pretty much lost it all. It's no exaggeration, I've literally lost everything. I've worked so hard since I was 16 and in a few unexpected circumstances and since January have to start all over. Because of my pride and embarrassment, I've lost contact with friends and have nobody to go through this with me. I'm in a pretty bad spot and feel despondent, seeing no way out of this dark hole. It's getting darker, too. I find it so hard to turn to God because I feel as though I'm being ignored. Yet another 'test'. I have vices and have fallen into them in my sinful way of trying to cope with the crippling depression and anxiety that has plagued me since losing my job and everything that came with it.
Please mention me in your daily prayers and if you think of it, during Divine Liturgy. I don't know if God's all that interested in helping me but maybe he'll listen to some of you.