So, I am alone...and yet, not alone.
Unlike JamesR who wishes to be alone, I always had envisioned a hubby and kids, and a white picket fence, etc.
However, my stipulation was he be Orthodox.
Over the years, my Orthodox Prince Charming managed to get himself lost in the woods, then his white charger lost a shoe and delayed him even longer, and then just as he was about to ride in to my village, he met a dairy maid and fell in love with her, before ever meeting me.
Needless to say, he never made it to my doorstep.
So, what am I to do.....melt in a puddle of regrets, of self pity, etc?
I didn't choose to be "alone". I actually went out "looking"...but, they were either too young, too old, or otherwise occupied. What's a girl to do?
I cannot say it didn't bother me...it did. I was truly envious of the married couples, I hated Valentines day, etc. I often wondered why the boys in my parish opted to marry outside the Church, and left not only me, but, other Orthodox girls behind.
I now realize I was wrong in feeling "jilted"....my life is sooooo full and rich....and I am definitely NOT alone.
Sure, I don't have a hubby and kids of my own....but, I still have a loving family surrounding me. I have chosen to busy myself at my parish and at other Orthodox parishes. I teach classes and therefore, am constantly surrounded by children of all ages. I have more friends than I can shake a stick at....and honestly not enough time in the day to fulfill my obligations.
My cup definitely runneth over, and I cannot complain about being "alone". It was not my choice....it was God's choice for me.
Glory to God and thanks for all things.
He truly does know what is best for us.