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I am going tonight to approach one of my enemies from years ago to see if there can be peace. He drove away a lot of "old timers" from participating at the psalterion, and 2 years ago I was blessed by my Bishop to be a chanter even though my studies are not completed. The Proistamenos won't let me chant because he knows about what happened between my enemy and I years ago, and knows I don't put up with big egos trying to push me around. But I got emotionally ill when I could no longer use my voice, and then my heterodox family started abusing me at home and my physical health broke also. The Proistamenos doesn't know this and my Bishop doesn't know this either. Like others on this board I am looking for a job also and life in this economy often feels like being in a prison camp, just trying to survive. Tonight I am going to actually have a conversation with the Protopsalti and try to heal the rift not by going against the Proistamenos' will, but by telling the Protopsalti that I need "brushing up" on what I learned at Seminary many years ago, and would he instruct me in his class so that a friend and I can chant at home. I have approached everyone I could by email from coast to coast and no-one is willing to help me continue my studies by proxy, but I cannot go on being ill and with all this poison inside of me the the Evil One has sent! Lord have mercy upon me, a sinner, as I try to reconcile with my former enemy tonight at Bridegroom Service!!
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #1 on: April 14, 2014, 06:58:50 PM »

Lord, have mercy and bring peace, reconciliation and good employment to Seraffa.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #2 on: April 14, 2014, 07:26:24 PM »
Jesus , Lord have mercy.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #3 on: April 14, 2014, 07:26:56 PM »
Lord have mercy.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #4 on: April 14, 2014, 07:37:53 PM »
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #5 on: April 14, 2014, 07:54:09 PM »
Lord, have mercy on Seraffa.

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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #6 on: April 14, 2014, 08:25:59 PM »
Lord, have mercy.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #7 on: April 14, 2014, 08:39:05 PM »
Lord have mercy.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #8 on: April 14, 2014, 09:15:34 PM »
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #9 on: May 28, 2014, 09:09:30 PM »
Lord have mercy.

Any updates? May God grant you peace.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #10 on: June 01, 2014, 03:22:46 AM »
Yes, thank you for asking. He said "ok" but didn't bother to take my phone number. He did not ask how many times I was attending the Cathedral, my workweek schedule vs. Sunday schedule, how to connect with me on Facebook (although I told him I had sent him a message.) I just was not impressed at all.

After making more changes to my life I got up the courage in the Antiochian parish I attend to ask to sit in on the choir rehearsal. I wanted to stop thinking about the whole issue and to just use my voice again to feel "well." I had felt physically ill over it for a year.After they went over what was expected of me I learned the choir director's son spent some time with (said Psalti) but ran up against differences when it came to deciding how to teach other people.

The choir director's son will be back again at the Antiochian parish to come and teach rudimentary Byzantine Music nonetheless, and I said "good - I understand what he went through -- give him my regards, and tell him I'll be very supportive of his efforts when he returns."

At the same time I work at the local Opera and was told that my pitch is a rare one, and to go seek professional training for it. Meaning -- I could become a professional Opera singer if I really, truly wanted to.

I am still continuing to listen to God for direction as I go. Thank you very much for your supportive prayers for such a newcomer!  :) :angel:
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #11 on: June 01, 2014, 11:59:56 AM »
Continued prayers. Lord, have mercy.
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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #12 on: June 01, 2014, 02:20:20 PM »
Yes, thank you for asking. He said "ok" but didn't bother to take my phone number. He did not ask how many times I was attending the Cathedral, my workweek schedule vs. Sunday schedule, how to connect with me on Facebook (although I told him I had sent him a message.) I just was not impressed at all.

After making more changes to my life I got up the courage in the Antiochian parish I attend to ask to sit in on the choir rehearsal. I wanted to stop thinking about the whole issue and to just use my voice again to feel "well." I had felt physically ill over it for a year.After they went over what was expected of me I learned the choir director's son spent some time with (said Psalti) but ran up against differences when it came to deciding how to teach other people.

The choir director's son will be back again at the Antiochian parish to come and teach rudimentary Byzantine Music nonetheless, and I said "good - I understand what he went through -- give him my regards, and tell him I'll be very supportive of his efforts when he returns."

At the same time I work at the local Opera and was told that my pitch is a rare one, and to go seek professional training for it. Meaning -- I could become a professional Opera singer if I really, truly wanted to.

I am still continuing to listen to God for direction as I go. Thank you very much for your supportive prayers for such a newcomer!  :) :angel:

Know that I am praying for you.

May God bless you and grant you peace.
The memory of God should be treasured in our hearts like the precious pearl mentioned in the Holy Gospel. Our life's goal should be to nurture and contemplate God always within, and never let it depart, for this steadfastness will drive demons away from us. - Paraphrased from St. Philotheus of Sinai
Writings from the Philokalia: On Prayer of the Heart,
Translated from the Russian by E. Kadloubovksy and G.E.H. Palmer, Faber and Faber, London, Boston, 1992 printing.

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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #13 on: June 02, 2014, 10:22:52 AM »
Yes, thank you for asking. He said "ok" but didn't bother to take my phone number. He did not ask how many times I was attending the Cathedral, my workweek schedule vs. Sunday schedule, how to connect with me on Facebook (although I told him I had sent him a message.) I just was not impressed at all.

After making more changes to my life I got up the courage in the Antiochian parish I attend to ask to sit in on the choir rehearsal. I wanted to stop thinking about the whole issue and to just use my voice again to feel "well." I had felt physically ill over it for a year.After they went over what was expected of me I learned the choir director's son spent some time with (said Psalti) but ran up against differences when it came to deciding how to teach other people.

The choir director's son will be back again at the Antiochian parish to come and teach rudimentary Byzantine Music nonetheless, and I said "good - I understand what he went through -- give him my regards, and tell him I'll be very supportive of his efforts when he returns."

At the same time I work at the local Opera and was told that my pitch is a rare one, and to go seek professional training for it. Meaning -- I could become a professional Opera singer if I really, truly wanted to.

I am still continuing to listen to God for direction as I go. Thank you very much for your supportive prayers for such a newcomer!  :) :angel:

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Re: Peace and New Beginnings with my former Enemy and my Cathedral
« Reply #14 on: June 02, 2014, 01:46:09 PM »
Yes thank you so much for all your prayers; they have really helped during this process! :)
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