thank you all for your prayers and support. while this inquiry is emotionally straining on my wife, we have not fought over it, thank God.
we have gotten to the point in our dialogue where she is willing for me to become Orthodox should i so chose, and that she may "catch up" with me later in her journey. she doesn't want me to wait for her as she doesn't know if it will ever happen.
that is at least something for me, that i could move forward in peace without feeling like i am forcing her to go, or she forcing me to stay. perhaps in this way we can let God move in our lives in His time, and should i become orthodox, perhaps it will be a witness to her to see that i haven't lost the Holy Spirit, but rather have been enriched in my walk. truth be told, my walk is already stronger just by being near orthodoxy, incorporating the hour prayers, speaking with a priest and studying the Orthodox Bible. it is hard to describe how, but it is somehow richer than my experiences learning in the Protestant world. somehow deeper, smoother, more elegant, refined, wise, graceful, loving, higher. i can't really pin it down with words.
anyway, sorry for rambling. i am enjoying my inquiry and it seems God is changing my heart in ways i did not expect.
may He continue to lead my wife and i into all truth and protect us from deception.
thank you all again.