I’m not really new, but it’s been a crazy semester, so I haven’t been on in several months.
As a quick recap, I first started looking into Orthodoxy in the fall of 2011. After a great deal of reading (mostly online), I attended my first Divine Liturgy in March 2012. After attending services semi-regularly, and then with increasing frequency, I became a catechumen this past June.
Since becoming a catechumen, I have found myself increasingly challenged. The first couple weeks were easy, but as time has gone on I find myself discouraged. My desire to become an Orthodox Christian has not waned in the least, but I am increasingly conscious of my failures and flaws. My priest said that my baptism would occur when he and I both felt I was ready—but I am ever more uncertain of what that means.
To make matters more difficult, even though I know I shouldn’t be in a rush, I am graduating this coming May. Upon graduation, I will no longer be in the area. Finding a parish in my eventual location will (Lord willing) not be too much of a problem, but I find myself nearly terrified by the idea that I might still be a catechumen when I leave the area. This last might be irrational, but I don’t know how concerned I should be (if at all).
This post grows long, so I end simply: “HELP!”