Yeah, we'll make due I guess. I am looking into months of testing and possible brain surgery for my seizures in the next year so I guess this is the least of my worries. What really makes it a problem is that I will about half way through every month have to go to McDonalds or the library to do my school . Oh well, God is good and yes it was a sin to be so candid about my father and get so angry. But it is also good to vent. I have been writing my own meditations after reading Marcus Aurelius for school and realize how much anger I hold in my heart. It is not good. Marcus Aurelius tells himself:
Begin the morning by saying to thyself, I shall meet with the busy-body, the ungrateful, arrogant, deceitful, envious, unsocial. All these things happen to them by reason of their ignorance of what is good and evil. But I who have seen the nature of the good that it is beautiful, and of the bad that it is ugly, and the nature of him who does wrong, that it is akin to me, not only of the same blood or seed, but that it participates in the same intelligence and the same portion of the divinity, I can neither be injured by any of them, for no one can fix on me what is ugly, nor can I be angry with my kinsman, nor hate him, For we are made for co-operation, like feet, like hands, like eyelids, like the rows of the upper and lower teeth. To act against one another then is contrary to nature; and it is acting against one another to be vexed and to turn away.