From another whose mind and heart are also wounded--I know just how much this hurts--Lord, have mercy!
It's like being trapped in a cave so dark that you cannot see an exit, and you must feel around the walls in hopes of finding a break in the stone. You go around and around and around, not even being able to see your own hands in front of your face, and you never find that exit. You feel like time speeds up and then slows to a crawl, you can't trust the clock or the calendar anymore, and it's as though you're walking around in someone else's body. It's a waking nightmare.
Lord, have mercy!