Okay, let us assume for a moment, that you do need to stay home from Church sometimes. AFR is a good thing, as someone said not a replacement for Church, but perhaps as a stand-in sometimes. But most of us don't go to Church every day. Are you listening to AFR at other times too? How is your prayer life? Do you read the scriptures? The fathers? The lives and writings of the Saints? The focus of Orthodoxy may be the church but there's a lot to living the Orthodox life outside of the church too.
Further when struggling with depression sometimes taking active steps to accomplish something is what's required, more so than taking active steps to accomplish something in particular. What do you do for fun, especially with other healthy moral people?
St. Zenaida, (a doctor and relative of St. Paul the Apostle) whose feast was yesterday, had an interest in psychiatry and had patients with severe depression and sought out not only the causes for these patients depression but also the cures. If your okay with asking Saints for their prayers at this point you consider asking her for help.
Yes, AF is not a replacement for church, and I don't treat it as such. When I'm unable to attend Liturgy, AF helps keep my mind where it needs to be--on the faith. When you can't physically go to church, it's real easy to fall away when you keep your mind on other things--TV, hobbies, diversions, even therapy. AF is just something I can tether myself to, and yes, if I look at it as a suitable substitute, I'll still fall away. I look at it more like a Band-Aid. Something to stop the bleeding until I can get to the hospital. I missed church again this morning, but not because it was a time I decided I was not in the proper mindset to go to church.
One common side effect of severe depression is insomnia, usually chronic. Being pre-diabetic, I already have chronic fatigue. I'd have been a road hazard, trying to drive to church today. I'm not making lame excuses. I'm making logical, realistic ones. I'm getting frustrated. I haven't been to church in three weeks now. I can try again for Vespers on Saturday, but there's no Liturgy this Sunday at the new church I want to check out. A Father Deacon is being ordained a Priest by a Metropolitan, and they're doing that in Rochester. If I'm 'functioning' on Sunday, I'll likely either attend Matins and Liturgy at the Greek church that I love (but don't understand) or attend Liturgy back at the OCA church that has, imo, organization and communication issues.
I'm withdrawing socially, and so a great deal of my problems just getting to church--that's probably part of it.
As to reading scripture, the answer is 'yes' and 'no.' I have no Bible, and the translation I want is the Orthodox Study Bible. It's $40 and I can't afford that right now, as I'm unemployed. However, I can access scripture on the internet. I'm working my way through Fr James Early's podcasts, which is Bible Study. I just finished The Sayings of Anthony the Great, Part II. As I pull up a particular podcast, I go to BibleGateway and pull up the verses he's covering in that podcast. All I can do right now is all I can do.
I have a lot of issues in my personal life that I'm struggling to work through, and I can either work through them one by one and get my life situated, however slowly, or I can push myself, beat myself up when I miss a step, and fall even deeper into the pit when I don't get anything done at all.
What I want is to get to a point where I can function. I want Liturgy, Matins, Vespers whenever I can manage it (meaning, I want Matins first/primarily), weekly Bible Study, and eventually, I want Greek Language lessons, and be able to go back to the first Orthodox church I tried. I have lofty aspirations, but it's not going to happen overnight.