You suffer because you are a sinner or to become better so all justifiable. God exists. Did Theotokos had a life full of comofrts? No, she was living poor.
Evil get more good in their life? Happiness which is empty... I think you stil lthink the hapiness of the world is good. And yes... They feel happy but for thigns that are bad, while we have always to fight. Jesus said that the door is too small and full of hardnesses. The Holy spirit brings hapiness yes. Social hapiness is soemthing we Christians chase not because it ahs no meaning to ourselves. We chase it only for others, not us.
God is perfect, yet while He love us with all our wrongs we still don't liek Him while He is perfect. But God will never become like what we want Him, we will become like what he want us to be.
Bad things= no God, it seems like this I am blind= light does not exist. I don't think it is true God does not exist.
Well then seems you think you have no sin. And loo kyou want hapiness of the world. Well, God loves you. He is doing a bad job? We do a bad job by doing and saying things as you say now. And yes I ahve turned against God too. How fool I was... . God loves me without end and I turned against Him. But I could not stand all the bad things and turned to Him. Not because He didn't want to help He elt all that but ebcause I left from Him. Awayi could not stand alone nor anyone else can.
If we were puppets then why would we do what we want and not what He wants?
Hmm... I think I answered to most of your questions posted.
Brother one lst thing if it is for you to see light I hope you see it while I lose it. I would prefer both of us to see it,w but if it is let it be, Take the light and see God as He is and not as you want Him to be.