Ultimately, though, it is your life, and you are free to do with it as you please. But when you keep putting yourself and your self-diagnoses out there and make snide remarks against those who have tried to help you with advice with which you disagree, don't sanctimoniously pretend to be a victim.
ahh... OK, it might have been better for me to have chosen a subject line like "former cult member continues to experience "siddhis".
The first time I saw this light I was looking at a photo of Swami Muktananda on the back of one of his books which is a classic and almost common kind of introduction for "devotees". They considered this to be a spontaneous awakening of kundalini energy - like dry wood catching fire from a small spark. I remember reading a book by an American psychology professor who described seeing this electric blue light coming out of Muktananda's eye entering his own and circulating back to Muktananda. His book wasn't specifically about Siddha Yoga he just mentioned it parenthetically in a scientifically objective way.
If my disputants here really care about me or the topic they should research Siddha Yoga / Muktananda and the kinds of things happening to people back then because I was one of them. My particular experience was classic and completely in keeping with other supposed "adepts" in that cult. God knows what we were really experiencing but it's very unlikely it was retinal failure (in my opinion).
Obviously I experienced seeing this light much more frequently when I was actively participating in the cult but it's exactly the same when I experience it again now - 25 years later.