I was raised Christian, and spent much of my childhood and all of my adolescence (from about the age of eight until I was twenty) with a United Methodist minister as my stepfather. When I went to college, I lost my faith entirely, first becoming sort of agnostic, and then looking into different religions, each of which I lost interest in fairly quickly for different reasons. At this point, I became an atheist, and was outright hostile to religion (especially, but not exclusively, Christianity) for a while.
One day I picked up a copy of the Tao Te Ching, and found in it an idea of "god" that I found much more palatable than the one I had learned about when I was younger. A sort of "ultimate reality" and truth where the universe was perfect and everything was alright, and the key was to be at peace. I thought about this daily, and over time, even as I was attempting to improve myself using the tenets of a totally different religion, I found myself becoming less hostile toward Christianity. A little bit under a week ago, I came across a website called ancientfaith.org and started listening to one of the podcasts, called "Orthodoxy and Heterodoxy," which went through the differences between Orthodox Christianity and other forms of Christianity as well as other religions. I listened to that entire series and a few episodes from a podcast called "Theological Thinking" and one called "Our Life in Christ." Everything that was being said just kind of "clicked," and I find myself eager to go to church for the first time since I was a child.
I looked into local Orthodox Churches, and there are a couple nearby, so I'm going to start attending services there soon. I don't have a vehicle of my own (long story) but am saving toward one. As soon as I have a vehicle, I'll begin going every Sunday.
I came here because what was said about needing to be a part of the church really struck me, and even though I can't get to the church yet, I wanted to talk to Orthodox Christians, for a few reasons, really. I don't know any Orthodox Christians, and though I've probably met some before, I was never aware of it. I want to learn everything I can before I step in the door, so that I don't feel stupid that first Sunday. I also just want to have a community of people to talk to online, and hopefully feel encouraged by, before and after I start attending the local services.
I'm sorry if this is the wrong area for this. It seemed like the right one, but I could be wrong.