I grew up athiest with my dad, loved art and history. One of the things that kept me from any Christianity was what I thought I knew at the time. I had 2 sets of Ned Flanders surrounding my house who was constantly talking about God yet their kids always seemed to get into trouble. All I knew at the time was that Christianity consisted of people on TV with way too much makeup crying for money only to find out they've had mulitiple affairs and lived not to their teachings. All the while my dad always taught me good morals including pro-life positions and such. Why would I need some Church?
As I got older I wanted to believe in something, anything but something that could truely standup with conviction. I hadn't a clue what East Orthodoxy was until a couple of years ago, and when I did, I fell in love with the traditions.
I think what Orthodoxy did to change me was the veneration of the Virgin Mary along with the ideas of what sin is. Those concepts were drastically different than anything I've ever heard of. Finally there was a place that respected women at the highest degree. Additionally I refuse to believe even to this day that we are guilty of anything when we are born. The "missing of the mark" seems so much more accurate to cause. From there I really got into it.
As of now sometimes I still struggle, but I know it's Orthodoxy or nothing at all for me. I've even experienced what might be considered a miracle or two in the past couple of months, but I think I am beginning to understand what Christ's teachings mean without feeling brainwashed or compromising who I am.
I have to back off of modern apologetics sometimes because some of the argumentation is contradictory, and it causes me to not believe a lot of what is said. But when I experience the church itself and what the services do, it is a whole other experience for me; it's more personal and no "noise" so to speak from outside talk. An Orthodox church feels spiritual, and I love it everytime I go.