Many times when I was about to visit a Greek parish for divine liturgy, what I felt more worried about is the culture, ethnic norms and the acceptance from parishioners. I always worry that if I have a chance to really get into the community rather than just being an outsider who attends liturgy occasionally. Sometimes I felt quite discouraged and unhappy, wanted to quite or try something else. Nevertheless, I realized later that I still have great interest in Orthodoxy and should keep exploring and maybe will be happy at the end. I know I can attend parishes from other jurisdictions such as OCA and Antiochian if I want, but will feel pretty bad if they are the only possible "best choices" from other people's suggestions. I always have conflicting ideas in my mind. At one hand, I try to tell myself that I cannot chance the norm and should consider something different. Ar the other hand, I feel it is more worthy for me to try something I like, because it is what I will appreciate.
I would like to ask some prayer for guidance and peace in my journey.