That there are 9 pages devoted to this thread give it a credibility that is amazing, considering that the premises and contradictions being espoused by Matthew are among the most bizarre that I have ever read on any EO/OO/EC or even RC board.
I understand that my line of thinking may sound contradictory, I am actually getting rather confused myself.
Having already been accused by Jennifer of "bullying" Matthew, I won't belabor the point, but this young man continues to demonstrate that he has no concept of who he is or what he wants to be
The truth is that at this point, I do not know who I am or who I want to be but I just started college and I have plenty of time to find out.
only that he wants to "have it all" and do so on his terms, the remainder of the Christian world be damned.
It is not my desire to take advantage of people for my own personal gain. I would rather conform to a group and work toward the betterment of the whole than to worry about my own self.
Matthew is a Syro-Malankar Orthodox, who is considering joining a Russian Orthodox monastery, although he has no experience with Constantinoplian/Byzantine Orthodoxy and doesn't want to confess as a heresy that which he doesn't believe to be a heresy
If they gave me proof of it to be heresy, I would confess my "monophysite" heresy.
is concerned that a community of 3 might be too intimate, but it's close to home and he'll otherwise miss his mother
My only concern is that the monks would judge me for my past, but I trust that whatever decision they make concerning me will be the right one.
Now concerning my mother, it is not the fact that I would miss her too much. It is the fact that I should always be close enough to take care of her if she ever needs me. One thing you do not know is that my father is an alcoholic and a rather dangerous person. But then again, this is perhaps too personal to share with you.
Matthew is a Syro-Malankar Orthodox, who is considering joining a Latin Catholic monastery, although he doesn't believe in all of the Magisterium of the Catholic Church, but it would afford the opportunity of a degree without the onerous financial burdens of doing so through ordinary means and might give him the eventual opportunity to teach in a Catholic university setting, and besides, it's close to home.
As I have said before, if I feel after visiting Vashon that it is the right path for me, I will work to pay for the rest of my schooling. I am already paying my way for college right now and I am doing just fine.
However, if I do not happen to like Vashon, I will consider joining Saint Martin's because
A. I have visted the monastery before and I was rather impressed.
B. Father Michael and Deacon Gabriel have spoken favorably of this as a possiblity.
Furthermore, this isn't a matter of what I can get from St. Martin's but what I could potentially give.
Uncharitable as anyone may view it, I repeat my earlier belief that Matthew is emotionally and theologically immature.
Four years of college and three years of the novice period should be enough time to become emotionally and theologically mature.
Meanwhile, he is using this forum and its members as a sounding board to toss out his continuously vacillating opinions and priorities, like floating test balloons, to see what will fly as he tries to piece together not his life but a plausible argument that he can advance to whichever monastic institution he ultimately decides to bless with his presence.
This is not my way of crafting an elaborate plan to take advantage of people.
This is just one avenue to help me make sense of my thoughts.
I, for one, see no useful purpose in continuing this dialogue,
Given that the purpose of this dialogue, to probe the Benedictine Order from an Orthodox perspective, has not been followed, I see no useful purpose in continuing this dialogue either.
this is beyond the point of logical discussion.
Agreed. But that is not necessarily my fault.
Thank you and have a nice day.