Well when I was younger, much younger, I was taken to vacation bible school in a nice Lutheran Church. I believe my interests in Christianity were placed within me during this time--but during my middle-school years I believe I became more interested in history and philosophy. Well the summer going into 9th Grade (i.e. going into high school) I became deeply interested in Christianity, I even considered becoming Mormon, now I don't even remember what the real reason I considered joining. But I became interested in religion, and had a really weird spiritual breakdown (delusional thoughts of "visions" and all that nonsense) between December of that year and January of the following, but in January I realized the errors of the Mormon faith and was a Protestant.
But when I became Protestant during that time I was more of, "I know God exits, and Christianity is likely true, I need to know which Church to join" but I was confused, deeply. So after about 2 months, I disbelieved in Christ and became what I call "a thinking deist" where I think anyone reasonable would believe that God does exist, but disbelieves in any afterlife what-so-ever. I was this till about May when I became a Christian again, my father went to a convention and brought back religious books. So this was right around the time that school year had ended, I had pretty much 3 months of summer to have fun and do stuff. Well I had a period of time in June of thinking of becoming a Muslim, I heard Islam's claims to be the "truth", but I after awhile thought their claims were invalid and false presumptions due to them not studying history.
So going into July I had really looked into the Christian faith and believed Roman Catholicism was the truth, I agreed with them using what I considered "logical" ideas. I never went to a Catholic Service for the record. But a short time afterwards I became full-on Protestant, and by the time August came around I was a fundamentalist, but then I fell around various other views of new-age-Protestantism. I fell away from the Protestant faith last November and became a Christian Deist (I thought the Christian Faith had been distorted from Jesus original teachings).
So January comes around I start to think I never gave Eastern Orthodoxy and Roman Catholicism a full chance, so I studied and originally leaned towards Eastern Orthodoxy but I learned about what happened at Fatima and the prophecies which were fulfilled and then sort of looked the early Church Fathers and saw that they mentioned the "Catholic Church" and I thought with mentioned things which Catholics believed and then I was sort of like "well they believe most of what the Catholics believe, why isn't this the truth then?". I got a book from the Library last week and it was essentially a Roman Catholic defense of their view on Mary, and I was convinced that they may have a point, but the father I got into the book the more I saw the book hint at the idea that some of their core views on Mary were first believed after the first few centuries. In the book it mentions briefly the view of Mary in Orthodoxy and I agree with the Orthodoxies view.
I hear that non-Roman Catholics say that Rome liberalized itself in the Second Vatican Council, it had to bring itself into modern times to escape judgements from non-Catholics about them being "old fashioned". I love old-fashioned, it means it follows the truth. But I now see how non-Catholics make the Second Vatican Council did in a way, liberalize the Church. But why I am at a crossroads is that the Roman Catholic Church claims all these prophetic messages appear to Catholics, and not other sects, and a lot of the time, the prophesies they see become real. I also cannot accept what the majority of Roman Catholics accept as true about eschatology, I see myself as a futurist (or it will happen soon, and that events described during the end times has not fully happened yet).
So I have two questions...
1) Why do Catholics receive the prophecies that mostly come true, and why don't Eastern Orthodox Christians get them? If the Eastern Orthodox does, why isn't it on a scale such as Fatima?
2) If Catholic means Universal why didn't the Eastern Side take that name to their Church? Because the early Church Fathers wrote of the Catholic Church being the Church.