Ohhhh....but, He IS present....every second of your day.
To a certain degree we find ourselves in a situation of our own making...but, that's because we have freewill.....and often that freedom leads us astray.
No matter the situation you are in, He's there beside you....all the time.
I think our problem is that we wish for a "personal" relationship with Christ. We wait for the "warm and fuzzies"...and when we don't experience them we feel God has alienated Himself from us, etc.
We aren't instructed to nurture a personal relationship with Him. It is through the Church and the Holy Sacraments that we draw near.
Nobody is made to be alone or to try to find God, on their own.
Even monks, or dessert dwellers, still had abbots, brother monks, etc. to answer to.
I believe the closer you come to the Church, get embraced by the Church, the closer you will find yourself to God.
May God bless you and aid you on your journey Home.