May God continue to bless you to struggle manfully!
I can't find the saying at the moment (perhaps it was Abba Macarius?) so I will have to extemporize. One of the Fathers likened the passions to a garment: when it is shut up in a drawer and not exposed to light and air, mold will set in and it will rot away. Or like a scorpion, when full of vitality and free to roam wherever it will, is harmful but when sealed in a jar and deprived of food will weaken and die. In like manner the passions, when shut up in the heart and not given the aid of our will and activity, will in time, weaken and be rendered manageable.
So proceed with this remembrance: when you are finally able to cast this habit aside, abstinence will become easier. As long as you indulge it, you will give it strength and have to struggle.
This is not meant as condemnation, just propaedutic, FWIW.
I will pray for you.