I'll pray for you friend. Mothers can be difficult--as all women can be--I'm sure she loves you even though she's so difficult.
Some of the things you say lately, James.
I can relate to what you say, my dear OP. Mothers seem like this to teenagers all the time! It's like they want us to die or something! Take comfort in the fact that your mother, like all parents, is a person. We people have changes in feelings and such all the time. Her work may be stressful, or other aspects of her life.
Despite what they tell is, it's not necessarily part of motherly love to dote upon us kids all of the time. Moms are allowed to have bad days, just as we do. They shout at us and sometimes make mountains out of molehills (like my mother, when I didn't finnish the cootage cheese this morning while making my lunch.
Love her. She loves you to pieces, I promise. Moms aren't like they are on TV. You'll feel better as you get older, I promise.
However, if you ever feel that your mother is verbally or even physically abusing you, you've got a problem. Get help. But learn the difference between true
motherly love and abuse.