Lord have mercy!
I for one will miss you around here Pmpn8rGPT, I am sorry you are going through such difficult time. I pray that the Lord will give you and all your family a respite from it. May the Lord have mercy on your Mother, you and all your family. Please do not rush into major life changes while you are under the duress of grief and stress. both of the beautiful paths you are contemplating are to be discerned wisely with a free heart and mind, by the Grace of God. May the Protection of the Most Holy Ever Virgin Theotokos be with you my brother. May the Lord bless you , protect you and guide you. Amen.