I'm tired of everything. I have no ambition and life feels so meaningless. Everything becomes old and boring quickly for me. Now I have nothing keeping me going. I'v become desensitized to everything. I'm constantly angery and all I do is work and smoke weed. I'm tired of it. I'm bored, lonely, irresponsible, don't even try to follow God anymore (I'm more like a deist, or even an atheist), I don't get to work on time, I slack off, I'm lazy, I'm always depressed, etc. I feel like life is going nowhere. I know what I should do (pray, go to church, read Scriptures and the Fathers, eat right, fast, work out, quit smoking weed and cigarettes, etc) but I have no ambition. There seems to be nothing to look forward to and no reason to do anything.