I am a lutheran thinking of becoming Orthodox and I have some questions maybe someone of you could help with.
I started thinking becoming Orthodox for about half a year ago. I have not been a prominent church-goer (quite typical lutheran at least here in Finland) and I come from not-really-religious family. Not atheist, but we never went to church. The problem is now that for the time when getting to know Orthodoxy (and maybe in my point, Christianity), I've started to have some really big questions about my life. I live together with my girlfriend (with whom I have been speaking of becoming Orthodox and she might also convert) for year and a half and we're thinking of marrying. The problem is just that the more I've got to know about Orthodox Church, the more I feel guilty for the sin that we live together without being married. As you probably understand, getting married doesn't happen just like that, it is more of a question of money etc. than not wanting to get married that we're not married. I know that this is still my own fault and nobody elses and I really know that it is a sin and this, how we're living at the moment, is not right. I've prayed for God what to do and I'm hoping to see our Orthodox parish priest as soon as possible to talk about this, but since I'm not a member of the Church, I don't know if he can / will help.
If there's anyone there who can help, I would be most grateful. I feel terrible for being in a such situation and I know that there are two options a)getting married asap or b)breaking up with my girlfriend and I just would want to do what is right and I am not always sure, if option b) would be right. But if it would be God's will, then it is. I know that whatever happens, it is His will and He is love. Maybe this is something I really should discuss with our parish priest if he could help me even though I am not yet member of the Church.
Thank You all and sorry for such stupid and silly question, I just feel that I need help.
PS. And I just wanted to add that even though because of my stupidity, I sound like I was 18 years old or so, I'm actually 29 years old. I thank anyone of you if you can help.This situation is tormenting me. Pray for me if you will. I am almost too scared to even pray.