See, it would have been easier!
You mean I wouldn't be "caught in the middle"?
But I'll be a spiritually hungry nominal Roman Catholic.
Just curious... what do you feel is missing in the Latin Church?
It has become too legalistic. I do things because Canon this or CCC that says so. I don't feel that there is true spiritual growth and true change out of it. I have faithfully followed a lot of things as taught, like the Sunday Obligation, Fasting Days, I even followed some devotions like First Friday. I just felt like I am where I have always been. In recent years there has been a desire to know more and be a better Christian after spending a good part of my "young adulthood" in liberal ideas. But aside from being more disciplined to actually follow rules due to my maturity, I feel that it is the same thing I had growing up.
With Byzantine Christianity, I found the answers I had been looking for. Everything made sense, and it is not just about rules. I learned why we fast and that fasting is not just for the sake of not eating something because it is a mortal sin if you do. Everything about the faith just started making more sense, why we do the things we do and how we do it all is part of a bigger picture which end goal is our salvation.
I had a chat with my Bishop about my present concerns and I was telling him that I don't feel I belong in his Church. His first thought was I was going back to being a Roman Catholic. I said I would never do that. In the Byzantine Faith I have found the Kingdom of God and like the man who discovered the treasure in the field, I am willing to sell all my belongings to acquire it. That is, if I cannot acquire it in the Eastern Catholic Church then I will go to the Orthodox Church. But I do not see myself becoming Roman Catholic again. There would have to be a huge change in the Latin faith for me to come back, and I don't even see it on the horizon. What the Traditional Catholics are doing is not appealing to me. I explored Traditional Catholicism before I ended up in the Ukrainian Catholic Church. It was a more beautiful expression of the same thing. And with all the issues with the SSPX and all their ranting about "Novus Ordo" practices, it wasn't a spiritually healthy environment. So no going back to the Latin Rite.