I have been Orthodox most of my life as many of you know. My father (like as in DAD(yes I did have to go to confession to him!!!LOL)) is an Eastern Orthodox priest. I have even attended St. Vlad's seminary in New York for about a year myself, considering becoming a member of the clergy. I am cradle Orthodox. Ecumenism crushed me, and was for me like hitting a speed bump at going 100 mph. The things I saw at the WCC were infuriating (personal opinion formulated from what I understood Orthodoxy to be).
So anyway, I backed out of the church some, and still grip the love and beauty of the worship. YES, I have some issues that many have read and bopped me over the head a few times about. In honesty though, they are kind of serious issues, but not the full blown essence of Orthodoxy at all, and nothing I couldn't work out I'm sure.
I am married to an Anabaptist Mennonite, and have been for 17 years. We have 5 children together. She is pretty open to Orthodoxy in many ways, with some hesitation but has told me that she would accept my guidance as the spiritual leader of our family.
Anyway, this is a long process for me and HAS BEEN. I don't know if I'll ever make it back to Orthodoxy.... but my faith is a WIDE OPEN wound and has been many years prior to joining the forum (you regular guys know this though)
So I'm asking for book suggestions.... Even small print rare books with stapled bindings (I am willing to write to a monastery to order even).
I need something that is an incredibly deep and powerful Orthodox read... If there are any books that seriously are incredibly moving that grasps the depths of your soul, please if anybody could share the title(s) with me.
I've been through a lot of the common stuff (Ladder of Divine Ascent for example) and its good, but I'm looking for something.... else.... With an incredibly deep re-calling to Orthodoxy.
I don't know if something like this exists.
I appreciate it, and God Bless.