I haven't been in a good mood this week. At school things are quite fine, but outside (work, inner life) its not going well. My relationship with my boss at work has been strained ever since I messed up on a transaction late last month and I think he's still angry with me since I mistakenly missed a day at work when I thought I was off. As of me, I'm constantly battling my apathy about everything in particular (even my spiritual life). Sometimes I feel that God is ignoring me because I'm not repenting correctly
or that I constantly give in to my anger, depressions and other passions/sins/temptations.
It's becoming really hard for me to struggle with these things and I end up feeling cold and burnt out inside that I end up not praying with true fervor (even why I try to pray, but for me "trying" won't count anymore in God's eyes - forgive me for that). It's like bits of grace are given and taken away from me by the moment.
Prayers would be appreciated at this time. Thanks in advance.