I'm not sure where is the best place to put this. I want to get chrismated soon. I like the church, and I find things in Orthodoxy that I fundamentally agreed with even before I read that they were Orthodox. I don't have figured out exactly where I will usually go to church, be it the one farther from me in the jurisdiction I like best or a local one in communion. I'm scared because I think I may get caught up in trying to be a perfect Christian again and lose sight of the God part behind it. That is one thing that really pulled me away from being a serious Christian (more evangelical/Protestant side at the time) before when I actually briefly was questioning the merits and feasibility of a truly Christian life. I've had a counselor tell me that I put too much responsibility on myself-and while that was a slightly different context, I think that captures something of my personality well. I want to know grace more than responsibility, love more than fear, and forgiveness more than failure. Please pray that God would keep these close to me. Any advice is welcome.