Please keep me in your prayers. I have had depression for years, but I am in the worst depression that I've been in for 7 or 8 years. It is early for me too, my worst depressions are usually during the period of late autumn through winter (and they are nowhere near as bad as what I am experiencing now). I am so sad, scared, and tired (Other than a couple of 5-7 hr sleep nights, I have mainly been sleeping only 3 or 4 hours a night for the last month). I have a doctor's appointment on August 6th. I plan on emailing my priest tonight or tomorrow (he is getting back tonight from the youth camping trip) asking if we can set up a time to talk because I am afraid that if I don't do this, I will chicken out and not do it.
Please take care of yourself, and I will pray for you. I would suggest getting some over the counter sleeping pills, preferably melatonin since it works in conjunction with serotonin, something your body needs to keep your spirit up. Also make sure you do not eat or drink anything with caffeine after two o'clock.
Since your problems are during the months with the least light, you seem to be suffering from light depredation
. I'm not sure because I don't know where you live, but a more southern climate would probably be the best thing for you. Otherwise there are special lights that can be bought to help you.
If you are on to anything pertaining to the occult, then clean yourself of it immediately
. Watch what you go onto in the internet, make sure you go to confession and have the priest say special prayers over you.
Also watch your diet. Start a Mediterranean diet if possible, it's an acquired taste. Stop fast foods, carbs if possible, and start eating healthfully with lots of vegetables, olive oil, and especially fish
. Take fish oil
if possible because it has been known as a mind food since time began. Fish strengthens the nervous system, and I can't help but feel that all the problems today with Add and ADHD is because children are not taking cod liver oil, or eating fish the way they did at one time.
If you have chronic fatigue system, then take doses of Vita. C around the clock, and again lots of vegetable. I have a powdered drink called: "Fatigue to Fantastic". You can find it and order it on the internet. It will revitalize you immediately.
Stay well and keep well.