Perhaps what Hiwot said is right, maybe this came from the evil one.
Pray for me.
Glory to God
Nicholas, in the near future, if God wills, i will be entering a monastery, and i am relatively young, so still at university (and the abbot would want me to finish because i've spoken to him before and he would not want me to rush into this) and just today it came to me that St Paul had a vow and had his hair cut off, and i thought to myself, 'why don't i make a vow, so that i will enter a monastery', and by doing so, i will have nothing stop me from going, for i have made a vow.
Forgive me brothers!