I guess I just need some prayer for better personal discipline in all areas. I don't have the slightest desire to begin to say "no" to anything that I enjoy, or to force myself to do anything that I don't have to by necessity. This extends to all areas it seems, from dietary decisions to acquisitiveness, actually being disciplined about my prayer life, etc. It's really all just depressing and I feel kind of trapped. I have a lot of great things in my life, but I'm also just crowded with too much junk. Internet included!