I too am a RC inquiring into the Orthodox faith. I'm sure if I had known about Orthodoxy prior to RCIA, I would have chosen Orthodoxy. But I must say, Roman Catholicism was not a waste of time. Should I leave the RCC, I will not leave empty handed. In every religious and/or spiritual path that I have walked, it has all been to come closer to Him. If I am not sure of nothing else, of this I am sure.
However, I can relate to your inner feelings...I think. I first discovered the OC on Passion Friday, I stumbled across Coniaris Introducing the Orthodox Church. I devoured it, out of order. I was left very much conflicted, I was overjoyed and I was a bit upset. Joyful for finally, my inner thoughts&beliefs were expressed within a Christian faith. Upset well because, really must I again go through an official 'convert' ceremony?! In spite of this inner unrest, I decided to peruse this new curiosity of the OC.
I attend DL as much as possible, and I just had the pleasure of Vespers this pass Wednesday for the first time. I also follow a very simple Orthodox prayer rule. Like you, the Orthodox spirituality draws me near. Will I convert, I don't know. I am open to conversion, and yet I have not requested to join the catechumenate. Interestingly enough, whenever I think of going to church it's always Orthodox service. I have attended Mass only once since Easter. It's all very beyond my comprehension, and yet I fell secure.
All this to say Kelly, don't put the cart before the horse. Slow&steady, be gentle with yourself. Some are born Orthodox, others come home after a long trip. One is not better than the other, all things accordingly. And the RCC, IMHO, is a great stepping stool. Should one be so moved to continue on... I think being a practicing RC is not time wasted in the least, quite the opposite.
In the risen Christ!