(Mods: feel free to move this if there's a better place for this)
So here's something I've been thinking about that I'd be curious to get other thoughts on. I was not raised Christian, I wasn't raised any faith actually. I was never baptised. As a teen I felt compelled to find a connection to something spiritual. Throughout my adult life I'd felt something spiritually missing, Christianity always seemed this mystery that I wasn't a part of and didn't understand (my parents had strong feelings about "bible thumpers" so I had that baggage to deal with too) so I searched through pagansism, new agism, unitarian univeralism...whatever kind of struck my fancy, trying to find what "fit".
Now I've found the Orthodox church and it fills everything I was looking for. I really believe that something led me here. Something pushed me to not stop searching for God. At first I thought maybe I had a Guardian Angel. But when I asked my priest about that he said that I wouldn't have one until one is assigned when I am baptised.
So my ponderings are if I didn't know God, if I am not baptised, am without a guardian angel, if I have never been chrismated and touched by the Holy Spirit, how did my soul have a desire to look? If not the Holy Spirit, what would lead me? Who/what inspired/stirred me? What/who do you think lead you to Orthodoxy?
I've been told by my non-orthodox christian friends that even if I didn't know God, God knew me. Does God put little clues before us that we either see or ignore? I'd like to think that someone had a plan to get me here, that something had a hand in getting me to the church I now attend, to meet the wonderful people I have met, because I can't in any way imagine it was all coincidence or that I did it alone.
What do you think?