Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.'
Which means I think that you are banned, banned to the eternal death and the horror, the horror of being buried alive. You wake and you find it dark and able to move only a little. The smell of damp earth enters your nose and then you realize what has become your fate! You bang on the coffin but in vain! You scream! You scream! You scream! All in vain and then you realize--there is so much air and only so much and wonder is that a blessing or a cruse? A blessing that you will die sooner of suffocating than days of suffering in the coffin enclosed, but then thinking what first you will gasp for breath. Then the lungs will simply get tight, like when you have a breath holding contest. And then, just think, the lungs will grow truly tight and tighter in excruciating pain until finally the laws set by God, who has abandoned you to this fate, come and you begin to pass out. But not quickly. The brain is losing oxygen and you are now in a strange state between consciousness and unconsciousness, and the thoughts you think are familiar memories of the past--of happier times, even the bad ones you think of--and of numbers and all sorts of strange things. Time is no more. You do not know know how long you have been in this strange state of the brain losing oxygen but the horror, the horror of the state. You are still conscious of what is happening, but only in a distant way. You are more unconscious than conscious and you realize that God has not abandoned you to this fate but the undertaker. As things grow dark, darker than the darkness of the under-earth and coffin, you realize that you have not prayed for mercy to the Judge and then all is dark, truly dark. You are dead and falling, falling somewhere, falling, falling, falling.