By the way in the situation I am in now, saying I can just be forgiven if I ask for it seems like pelagianism to me. I know God exists because of my experience 2 years ago, but other than that it is like if he doesn't exist. My sins have left me alone. How do you guys experience the existence of God? Do you experience it? Because I have experienced it but now he ignoreres me. Saying I can make right with God through scouting out to the empty air for forgiveness seems like pelagianism to me. I feel only fear now towards God, and this type of fear is without love. Hence, I am on my way to hell and God doesn't seem to intervene anymore.