Lord have mercy!
fanofu, I know what it's like to try and get to an Orthodox parish that's far away. I don't have it quite as bad as you do, seeing as I'm only about an hour and twenty minutes away (each way), but I can certainly sympathize. I hope that things will go better with your family than you expect they will, once you work up the courage to tell them your thoughts (I know it's by far not an easy thing to do). As cliched as it is, and as seemingly overly-simplistic as it is, just trust in God.