Well the question is, how far are you going to go, Fountain Pen? There are people on this site who have read tons of the Church fathers, about doctrine, etc, and they are still churning out posts and starting arguments about every issue. You're going to hit a point when you know ENOUGH. That point is different for everyone, but I think you need to ask yourself where that point is or you may never step into a church.
And I say this because I've been there. I was in limbo and attended a Catholic church for two years, even though I had no intention of going back, because I was worried about going anywhere else and getting "seduced."
Good point. I think i'd have to reconcile several of the 'biggies' first. That's a good question and i think if i overcame a few huge issues with orthodoxy then i'd have to go along because my issues about it being heretical would cease to exist.
You really don't have to sign on to the Orthodox Church the minute you step in there. I promise. In fact, when I first met with the priest -- my first meeting with an Orthodox priest EVER -- I was babbling a mile a minute and he was like, "Stop. Let's not get too far ahead of ourselves. I want you to attend DL and meet with me for several months before we start planning the chrismation."
That's what I LOVED about Orthodoxy. I was so upset, initially, at his response. But I am so glad that they just don't take the first enthusiastic person and start the ceremony (Well, theoretically, anyway). It meant so much more when he said to me, "You're ready." It took probably about 20 or more meetings, him knowing about my personal history, religious history, etc. etc., studying, asking questions, being involved in activities, feasts, praying, etc. for me to get to this point.
And I have a long way to go, even once I am officially an Orthodox Christian.
I think that those viewing their stepping into their local church as a final moment of sorts are kidding themselves. It's just a beginning. I know I'm not there yet, but I feel it, and from my earlier Christian life, I KNOW it.
Anyway, I just wanted to know what your "biggies" are. I still have some issues that I'm resolving in my head, as does my husband, as do many catechumens/inquirers/converts/cradles, I'm sure. Not everything will be so neatly packaged in our hearts when we first enter the building.
And people leave the catechumenate. It happens.
Perhaps you could first visit (if you haven't already) a church when service is not going on? Just walk around, look at the icons, talk to a priest, ask questions. Go through the Divine Liturgy if they have a book for those poor saps who don't speak Greek/Russian/Ukrainian. Just check it out.
I was so freaked out about going to DL that I had to meet with the priest 3 or 4 times before I went. I almost made him run through the DL during one of our meetings, because I was terrified of going up for communion instead of the antidoron. Stupid, in retrospect, but I understand the trepidation of making such a big step. But everything he told me beforehand didn't make sense until I stood there and experienced it for myself.