i have a friend who is a professor of psychiatry.
in total i have 3 orthodox friends who are psychiatry specialists.
so i think psychiatrists are often cool.
i have a psychologist friend too, she's cool as well!
may God guide you, and also speak to someone like a priest or mature spiritual Christian who can advise you of the right person to see. we all have / have had various problems in life, you are not alone, and remember God cares for you and will lead you into all truth.
may God have mercy, lead you and guide you.