she is 75 after decades of thyroid-disorder symptoms, so bad that they almost had her bed ridden from the pain for months on end for decades, the only diagnosis was anxiety and depression as everything else they ever tested her for was perfectly normal.
When she was rushed to emergency twice in the last year due to rising blood pressure, God forgive me I thought she was over reacting and was annoyed at her over the drama when the doctors pretty much said anxiety and she should not use the blood pressure machine at home as this adds to the anxiety if her blood pressure happens to be high.
She went for a thyroid ultrasound last week and a nodule measuring over 31 ml was discovered, I need to stop googling as the results do not seem good as the nodule pretty much popped out of nowhere, I just pray that its not cancer, and if it is not to be the serious type that basically does not stand a chance.
I have a 46 year old intellectually retarded brother that is her world, he has never spent a day away from her, I cannot imagine how my brother would be looked after or get over anything happening to her.
I have no other sibling , no other family and have been exhausted for the last decade,I can barely manage the job I have now.I know Iam selfish and guilt hurts more than anything. I just want them healthy and safe so I can move forward, every time I am ready to I meet a wall.
We see the specialist on October 20th, prayers please for her and my brother.