Congratulations, Timon, for following your conscience in what was an awkward situation. You might have simply caved in cowardice before the eyes of men, and betrayed what you knew very well to have been true. It was an excellent choice you made. It will strengthen you in your walk toward Orthodoxy.
i definitely feel like it has.
the main problem i face now, its trying to explain my love for an Eastern faith in a western world. its a western world that needs an explanation for everything, verses and easter faith that doesnt require or need an explanation for everything. the Eucharist is a great example.
I even had trouble trying to explain things to my wife. if you are a protestant (who also has Rome-a-phopbia) and knows nothing of church history of Orthodoxy, its hard to have any kind of worth while discussion mainly because things are hard to explain at times. i find myself having trouble defending Orthodoxy sometimes because I dont know how to put it into words. and also its because I may be explaining something that doesnt make sense unless you understand several other things first... (hopefully youre following me here...)
since i am definitely in the minority when it comes to my friends, i feel like its me against everyone else. the simple truth is that if people could just experience
what i have experienced, it would make more sense. it also wouldnt hurt for them to read a book on the topic....
i feel like people think i am involving myself with some new-age/fringe-cult kind of stuff, when actually it is quite the opposite. this has been my struggle as of lately, and my prayer has been for God to give me the wisdom and clear words necessary to help others understand. sometimes, i feel like everyone thinks im crazy...