Sorry to be posting a new topic so suddenly.
In my last post I made some implications as to what I'm discussing here, namely in how desperate I am to maintain some sort of connection to the Church during the upcoming fall and spring semester. I do not know exactly why, but the idea of being unable to attend services regularly for almost nine months depresses me, even though I will be returning home and attending a sort of informal class each month with the priest of the parish that I attended. I pray regularly, each morning and night, and I have an immense desire to continue this habit, but simultaneously I feel wrong for doing so, as if since I'm not really Orthodox I cannot really understand the words coming out of my mouth. I think this all boils down to me learning the virtue of patience, but more so than my impatience to establish a relationship with the Church am I disturbed by not really knowing what to do in the interim. Do I just sit on my hands and live like a normal, American, secular college student?