Please, I beg you to pray for me. I am suffering from severe health problems, from poverty, from spirtual problems and I am failing at everything I set my hands to do. Please pray that God help me or even let me die and repose in a lowly corner in His kingdom.
Dearest sweet and loving "loser" -
From your note, I sense a great deal. You are not a loser. You are a "late bloomer". Your sensitivity in your choice of words tells me you are a "lover", not a "fighter". Your humility in your wishes tells me that God's promise is true:
"A broken heart and a contrite spirit, God will not despise." (Psalm 51)
You have not failed in "everything". Case in point: have you stolen a goat lately and been caught by police? No?
Therefore, you have not "failed" in EVERYTHING.....
I believe you when you say that you suffer severe health problems (I do, also) and poverty and also "spiritual problems". If you suffer all these, remember that you must have done something to anger the devil. He does not trouble those he already has in his grip. He only troubles those who are a threat to him and therefore, beloved of God. You must have helped to convert others, or have been comforting to others who suffer, or in some way, been an instrument of God, to be suffering so by the devil now. He takes retribution on those who love God. ("Can Satan cast out Satan?" ===our Lord...)
In my past, (and yes, I have one! grin!) I have been lower than a prostitute. I have been a "loser". I can tell you that a "loser" is one who has already given in, given up, and given over to the evil one. You have not done that. Therefore, you are not a
loser. You are suffering, no doubt. and my heart is with you. Take courage friend...where there is shadow, there is LIGHT...
I am praying for you tonight and will add you to my daily list of prayer requests.....please come back and tell us how you are doing, what is happening in your life, and what your worries are....you are not alone.
Much love to you now and alwyas, your sister (who also suffers from depression and these other things),