Hello. I am a complete newbie. My wife is on the way to becoming Orthodox and I am a possible inquirer but having a lot of trouble with faith n
I will post more about my and our journey but I need help.
I am in poor health and the priest said to us that a married couple is married for life in heaven but asexual. Is this true? What if when I die my wife remarries, is she married to two people / souls. As awful as it sounds I do not want her to remarry because I have so very few friends and she has so many, I see her as my only friend. So I hang on tight to the idea?
Second I have read a lot on this site about the sin of masturbation. The only way sexuality can be fully satisfying is for mutual masturbation and my own masturbation. Is this sinful? When I become Orthodox Lord willing if able, is it something I must confess?
Third. The parish is very small. Will the sole priest be the confessor for both my wife and I. That idea bothers me. Are there options and how I do I bring it to the priest?
The priest said to me that it may or may not be better for wife and I to become Orthodox together. Two years for me maybe. My wife will be ready in three months and until I spoke to priest about how I feel.
I am prone to depression and I feel if my wife become Orthodox before me I will simply give up. My wife is so spiritual and I only have an weak faith that vacillates.
More later I have some problems that I want to ask about but I want to give a bit of a story and ask people's thoughts. I am in a lot of emotional pain over this.